Dear you

Dear you who broke my heart without even noticing.

You know, the worst part of all of this is that I really trusted you and I gave myself to you in a way I did to no others here. So now that I am left alone by you, after you hurt and humiliated me the way you that you did, I am hating the fact that I for some reason, and in some weird way still like you and still want what was between us to continue.

I have always thought I wouldn’t be the girl to forgive the boy who hurt me and I honestly don’t understand my own feelings at the moment, I don’t even know if I have actually forgiven you or not. If I was the friend advising myself right now, I would for sure tell myself to forget about you, get over it and move on. But for some reason it is just not that easy.

Lots of love and hate from the girl you tore apart and forgot about.

- CS

Lost again

He was the first one to really break my heart. He treated me like shit and I know I deserve better, but something in me keeps wanting him. The last couple of months I have been telling myself I was over it, over him, and the last weeks I actually believed it, but my old feelings for him are coming back, and I hate it. Being at that place, at that house that reminded me so much of him only made it worse. And now that he is actually contacting me, I am lost again.

- CS

Be yourself

In reality, no one cares, they’re just curious.

You want to come in my life, the door is open. You want to get out of my life, the door is open. Just one request. Don’t stand at the door, you are blocking the traffic.

"In life it is much easier to give advice to others than to do it to ourselves."

To be old and wise, you must first have to be young and stupid. So follow your heart, and do what you like. 

The biggest challenge in life is to be yourself in a world that is trying to make you be like everyone else.

But there's only one you and only one me, so let's keep it that way.

Let's celebrate being who we are. 

- CS

Now I'm lost.

You asked me if I was mad at you

I asked you why

You said I seem mad at you

I told you why

You asked me how

I told you you didn’t seem interested

You said of course you were interested in me

You said you hoped for a new years kiss

You seemed like you forgot about me

I was hurt

You showed me you cared again

Now I'm lost.

- CS

You...

You are…

Arrogant

Boastful

Callous

Careless

Cowardly

Cruel

Deceitful

Dishonest

Foolish

Irresponsible

Mean

Nasty

Patronizing

Perverse

Rude

Ruthless

Secretive

Selfish

Self-centered

Stupid

Thoughtless

Untrustworthy

Vain

Cocky

Dumb

You are a…

Jerk

Bitch

Idiot

Man whore

Player

Fool

Dumbass

Creep

Asshole

Pig

Bastard

Shit

Ass

Blockhead

Dunce

Dummy

Jackass

Twit

Weirdo

Loon

Dork

Jock

Loser

Dick

Faggot

- CS

Tattooed to my heart

Like a tattoo, I will always have you.

But I can cover you up with another tattoo.

- CS

Love isn't always what you think

Love isn’t always what you think

You think he is worth your time

You think he deserve you heart

You hope he’ll pay you back with his own

Is it really worth trying?

When all you think of is that one person

Even though you don’t know what he is think of

Even though he “can’t” hang out

Is it worth waiting for him to realize you need more

More than whatever It is he is giving

or, What he is not giving

- CS

Days

They go by fast, too fast most of the time.

But when you need time, time to recover.

They go by slow, too slow.

                                                     

You have made so many of my days so great.

You have made some miserable.

But I still want to spend my days with you.

I have spent days crying over you.

I have spend days smiling because of you.

It has been four days now.

Four days since you turned my smiles into tears.

- CS

I was warned

I was warned

People warned me about you

But I stood up for you

I still wanted you

I didn’t listen to them when they said you were no good

I just laughed

I believed you, I really trusted you

But I see now that they were right when they called you a jerk

No good, that is what you are

But does it change anything for me?

No, I still want you

I still need you

I’m a fool

I have never felled this stupid before

You led me on

But I would let you do it again

- CS

The worst thing

The worst thing about you is that you are a jerk.

The worst thing about me is that I still want you.

The worst thing about this is that I still don’t know the truth for sure.

The worst thing is that I have to find out myself, that you just keep lying.

The worst thing is that not only you but also she betrayed me.

The worst thing is that I think I would forgive you in a heartbeat.

The worst thing is that you probably regret nothing.

- CS