An act.

You know, when I see you now I feel anger

I feel love and I feel lust.

I miss you

And I miss your touch.

When you scroll down the hallways in your black jacket

I feel like I don’t even know you.

And when you look the other way, acting like you don’t see me

It hurts so bad.

I just can’t seem to figure you out

You say you miss me and wanna spend time with me

But why don’t you then?

Why do you text me like you love me but act like you don’t know me.

- CS

My hope

I hope to go away for a few days

Get my mind off of things

Off of you

I hope to see the world

See the happiness in it

The happiness without you

- CS

Now I'm lost.

You asked me if I was mad at you

I asked you why

You said I seem mad at you

I told you why

You asked me how

I told you you didn’t seem interested

You said of course you were interested in me

You said you hoped for a new years kiss

You seemed like you forgot about me

I was hurt

You showed me you cared again

Now I'm lost.

- CS

Humans, oh so stupid hunmas..

Why does people in this world feel a need to make everything so god damn confusing and complicated. Us humans are so fucked up. For real though, why can't we just treat each other like we wanna be treated? Why cant we just fucking think about others than our self? We talk shit about each other and get pissed if others do about us. why can't we just realize that NOBODY is perfect, not even that one person we look up to the most. all humans, also your idol, makes mistakes. It’s just a part of life, we learn from it so why can't we just fucking move on? Humans are fucking stupid, I am too. I keep going back to you even though you treated me like shit. But then again, you did treat me good too. You did make me laugh, you made me happy. So maybe I’m not that fucked up. I'm just trying to be happy, have fun, live while I’m young.  My question just is if it would make me happy to go back to you..?

Why is it that we cant just fall in love once, and then stay in love with that one person. Then of course the other person would fall in love with you too., so there wouldn’t be any heartburns.

You can say what you want, you can do whatever. But I won’t let you get away with hurting me like you did. If you really want me back you gotta show me you actually mean it. 

- CS.

Over him!

I am so happy to say that I am over it

I am over him and his stupid games

I shall not go back to him

He does not deserve it, and I

I deserve better, I deserve to be treated good

It’s a nice feeling to finally be able to tell myself that I won’t go back to him

And I really hope it won’t change, that I wont change my mind again

Because I know it is stupid

I know I would be a goddamn fool to go back to him

But I cannot ignore the little voice in my head telling me that I easily could go back

Go back to being hopelessly in love with a jerk, an idiot.

A player that is what he is

I know that for sure and the stupid ting is that deep down I knew it from the start

I should start listening more to my brain

But then again, I don’t regret what was between us

Actually I Ioved it

And as cheesy as it sounds, you only live once so why not live my life and have fun?

But I should not go back

Cause he’s an asshole, a freaking man whore

And I can find better

I do not need him to be happy

and yes, he did make me happy, but he also made my cry

- CS

You...

You are…

Arrogant

Boastful

Callous

Careless

Cowardly

Cruel

Deceitful

Dishonest

Foolish

Irresponsible

Mean

Nasty

Patronizing

Perverse

Rude

Ruthless

Secretive

Selfish

Self-centered

Stupid

Thoughtless

Untrustworthy

Vain

Cocky

Dumb

You are a…

Jerk

Bitch

Idiot

Man whore

Player

Fool

Dumbass

Creep

Asshole

Pig

Bastard

Shit

Ass

Blockhead

Dunce

Dummy

Jackass

Twit

Weirdo

Loon

Dork

Jock

Loser

Dick

Faggot

- CS

You are such a jerk.

Yesterday I was happy

I super proud

Cause I was over you

I was over your shit

Your ugly lies and stupid games

Today I am confused

Again

I am confused about what you want

I am confused about what I want

And I do not know what to do

I wish you weren’t such a jerk

I wish everything between us still could be good

But you are a jerk

A fucking idiot

A stupid player

I liked you so much

You broke my heart so bad

I like you still

I just don’t know how much

How stupid I am

I know I shouldn’t go back to you

I hate you

I know I want to hurt you as bad as you hurt me

But I also know that I miss you

I miss us

You had me

My world was surround you

I thought I had you

I thought you truly felt something for me

But turns out you were only playing a game

Oh how I wish you weren’t such a jerk

How I wish I could figure out my own feelings and needs

- CS