You were everything

You were everything I didn’t expect to find here

I didn’t know how bad I needed you

How bad I would need you now

I wanna say I wish I had never met you

But that would be a lie

I would do it all again, so many times

I trusted you,

I felt closer to you than what good was , I guess

So now I’m alone, left with a broke heart

I didn’t need to find you but I did, and I’m happy I did

But you hurt me more than I had ever imagined

And you know what the worst thing is? I still don’t know the truth.

- CS

Countdown

I am counting the days

Every single day

I want it to go fast

But at the same time, I don’t

I think you could say I am excited

I know you could say I am VERY excited

I am anxious, curious

- CS

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is what I am looking forward to

Tomorrow is what is making me nervous

It is what makes butterflies take over my stomach

It is what makes me smile.

I cannot wait for tomorrow to come

But at the same time I am scared

I am nervous

But I cannot wait.

I do not think I will get any sleep tonight

I will be wondering about that day

That day that will be tomorrow

And I will be thinking about you.

- CS

Disappointed.

I am disappointed.

I know I should not be,

But I just am.

I am very disappointed!

Am I mean to say I am disappointed?

I mean,

Others did worse!

I should probably be happy,

But I just am not.

I cannot stop thinking about it though.

It is on my mind nonstop.

I wish I had acted differently,

Done something that would change

The situation I am in now.

But I did not,

And now I am disappointed.

Of myself.

- CS

You

I like your smile

It is cute

Your red cheeks

They are adorable

I think I like you

I like your name

I like saying it

Again and again

It is like sweet music to me

And I love music

I like your sweet texts

They make me smile

A lot

I think I am starting to like you

Like really

I think you like striped shirts

You have worn striped shirts every time I have seen you

Maybe it is just a coincidence

Maybe not

But you did in fact look great

I would like to meet up again

To see that cute smile of yours

And those red cheeks

I know I like you

I know I like you a lot

- CS

The one that got away

We were sitting against the wall. His right arm was wrapped around me holding me close to him and keeping me warm. My head was in the crack of his neck, resting against his shoulder. My lips touched the skin behind his ear and sometimes his ear lope as I spoke. His fingers were going up and down on my arm, caressing me lovingly. My eyes were closed, I felt so tired. But in that moment, all I wanted was to sit there with him. To talk silently while we kept each other warm. To hold each other. The feeling of my lips meeting his soft skin. The feeling of his fingers playing softly on my arm. To hear his raspy voice speak so low only I could hear it. His left hand found mine and we entwined our fingers. Our fingers played with each other in a slow pace. All we did was sit there and talk about everything and nothing. To caress each other in the most loving, caring and wonderful way. To keep each other warm and awake.

He moved his head so that he was facing me. He looked into my eyes quickly before closing them and leaning his head closer to mine. Our lips met and a passionate kiss began. Our mouths moved in sync as we kissed each other deeply. Forgetting everything about the people around us. Suddenly we were the only ones there, everyone else faded away. Our tongues met again and again as our hands held each other’s faces. None of us wanted to pull away. We didn’t even think about pulling away, before somebody spoke that is. I pulled away and leaned my head against his shoulder. My heart was racing. I was wet around my mouth, but I dint mind it. I could still feel his lips against mine, I could still feel his mouth moving in sync with mine. I wanted to kiss him again, but I didn’t do it.

We stood in the dark, in a shadow from a big tree. People were near but we didn’t see them. We talked like never before. My arms wrapped around his neck hugging him tight. His arms went around my waist keeping me close to him. My head was leaned against his warm chest as we kept on talking silently. We heard somebody ask who was snogging, but we ignored them. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to feel his soft plump lips against mine just one more time. But I was too insecure. So I hugged him instead. And told him I would miss him.

- CS

Let us talk

Can we talk about you

And a bit about me

Maybe about us?

I would like that

No, I would love that.

You could tell me about yourself

I could tell you about me

You know,

I even want to hear the things you have already told me

I just want to talk

I do not care if you think you are boring

I do not think so

I think you are god damn interesting.

Yep, that is what you are

Interesting.

Let us talk

Let us get to know each other better than we already do

Let us find out what we have in common

Let us just talk,

Forever.

- CS