I don't know what I know

I know you were more than happy the first time we kissed cause you tweeted about it

I know you liked the kisses that we shared cause you wouldn’t let me go

I know you liked spending time with me cause you kept asking me out

I know I meant something to you cause you showed up at places you wouldn’t normally go, to see me

I know you thought about me all the time cause you contacted me constantly

I know you wanted to know everything about me cause you kept asking me questions about me

But I don’t know what happened

I don’t know why you have no interest in me anymore

I don’t know why you keep lying to me

I don’t know why you are leading me on, not caring anymore

I don’t know why you felt the need to replace me with her

I don’t know why you’re ignoring me all of a sudden

I don’t know why you don’t appreciate me anymore

I don’t know how we went from talking constantly to almost not at all

I don’t know why or how I lost you

I don’t even know if I did lose you

But I know that you hurt me and that I want you anyway.

- CS

A cage made out of my love to you

The feelings that you made me feel

I cannot imagine anybody else make me feel like that

But it looks like you do the same to every other girl

Are you going to fool her too?

Something in me hope you will

Something in me hopes you will hurt her like you hurt me

She deserves it just as much as you

She fooled me just as much as you did

Did you laugh about it together?

I could imagine you do that

Am I just your entertainment?

Some animal trapped in a cage

A cage made out of my love to you

- CS

I was warned

I was warned

People warned me about you

But I stood up for you

I still wanted you

I didn’t listen to them when they said you were no good

I just laughed

I believed you, I really trusted you

But I see now that they were right when they called you a jerk

No good, that is what you are

But does it change anything for me?

No, I still want you

I still need you

I’m a fool

I have never felled this stupid before

You led me on

But I would let you do it again

- CS

The worst thing

The worst thing about you is that you are a jerk.

The worst thing about me is that I still want you.

The worst thing about this is that I still don’t know the truth for sure.

The worst thing is that I have to find out myself, that you just keep lying.

The worst thing is that not only you but also she betrayed me.

The worst thing is that I think I would forgive you in a heartbeat.

The worst thing is that you probably regret nothing.

- CS

The worst feelings:

cheated on, replaced, over-thinking, lied to, led on, not appreciated, not cared for, being left out, ignored, and worrying.

Basically all the feeling in me right now.

- CS

You were everything

You were everything I didn’t expect to find here

I didn’t know how bad I needed you

How bad I would need you now

I wanna say I wish I had never met you

But that would be a lie

I would do it all again, so many times

I trusted you,

I felt closer to you than what good was , I guess

So now I’m alone, left with a broke heart

I didn’t need to find you but I did, and I’m happy I did

But you hurt me more than I had ever imagined

And you know what the worst thing is? I still don’t know the truth.

- CS

Countdown

I am counting the days

Every single day

I want it to go fast

But at the same time, I don’t

I think you could say I am excited

I know you could say I am VERY excited

I am anxious, curious

- CS

You are mine

You are mine now

And I am yours

I love that thought

I love this feeling

To be somebody’s

But mostly to be yours

And to be able to call you mine

Yep, I am proud

I cannot wait to see you again

Though you just left the place

I like you a lot

I love you

I want you

I want to be with you

Laugh with you

Kiss you

Because I now know I can

I know I have the right

Cause you are mine

And I am yours

- CS

Can we go back?

Can we go back to that night we first met?

I really liked that night,

I wanna live it again.

Meet you for the very first time again.

Not that I wanna change anything.

I just wanna live it again,

Cause it was so very wonderful.

Wonderful, to meet somebody as sweet as you.

So can we go back?

- CS

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is what I am looking forward to

Tomorrow is what is making me nervous

It is what makes butterflies take over my stomach

It is what makes me smile.

I cannot wait for tomorrow to come

But at the same time I am scared

I am nervous

But I cannot wait.

I do not think I will get any sleep tonight

I will be wondering about that day

That day that will be tomorrow

And I will be thinking about you.

- CS

Disappointed.

I am disappointed.

I know I should not be,

But I just am.

I am very disappointed!

Am I mean to say I am disappointed?

I mean,

Others did worse!

I should probably be happy,

But I just am not.

I cannot stop thinking about it though.

It is on my mind nonstop.

I wish I had acted differently,

Done something that would change

The situation I am in now.

But I did not,

And now I am disappointed.

Of myself.

- CS

You

I like your smile

It is cute

Your red cheeks

They are adorable

I think I like you

I like your name

I like saying it

Again and again

It is like sweet music to me

And I love music

I like your sweet texts

They make me smile

A lot

I think I am starting to like you

Like really

I think you like striped shirts

You have worn striped shirts every time I have seen you

Maybe it is just a coincidence

Maybe not

But you did in fact look great

I would like to meet up again

To see that cute smile of yours

And those red cheeks

I know I like you

I know I like you a lot

- CS

The one that got away

We were sitting against the wall. His right arm was wrapped around me holding me close to him and keeping me warm. My head was in the crack of his neck, resting against his shoulder. My lips touched the skin behind his ear and sometimes his ear lope as I spoke. His fingers were going up and down on my arm, caressing me lovingly. My eyes were closed, I felt so tired. But in that moment, all I wanted was to sit there with him. To talk silently while we kept each other warm. To hold each other. The feeling of my lips meeting his soft skin. The feeling of his fingers playing softly on my arm. To hear his raspy voice speak so low only I could hear it. His left hand found mine and we entwined our fingers. Our fingers played with each other in a slow pace. All we did was sit there and talk about everything and nothing. To caress each other in the most loving, caring and wonderful way. To keep each other warm and awake.

He moved his head so that he was facing me. He looked into my eyes quickly before closing them and leaning his head closer to mine. Our lips met and a passionate kiss began. Our mouths moved in sync as we kissed each other deeply. Forgetting everything about the people around us. Suddenly we were the only ones there, everyone else faded away. Our tongues met again and again as our hands held each other’s faces. None of us wanted to pull away. We didn’t even think about pulling away, before somebody spoke that is. I pulled away and leaned my head against his shoulder. My heart was racing. I was wet around my mouth, but I dint mind it. I could still feel his lips against mine, I could still feel his mouth moving in sync with mine. I wanted to kiss him again, but I didn’t do it.

We stood in the dark, in a shadow from a big tree. People were near but we didn’t see them. We talked like never before. My arms wrapped around his neck hugging him tight. His arms went around my waist keeping me close to him. My head was leaned against his warm chest as we kept on talking silently. We heard somebody ask who was snogging, but we ignored them. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to feel his soft plump lips against mine just one more time. But I was too insecure. So I hugged him instead. And told him I would miss him.

- CS

Let us talk

Can we talk about you

And a bit about me

Maybe about us?

I would like that

No, I would love that.

You could tell me about yourself

I could tell you about me

You know,

I even want to hear the things you have already told me

I just want to talk

I do not care if you think you are boring

I do not think so

I think you are god damn interesting.

Yep, that is what you are

Interesting.

Let us talk

Let us get to know each other better than we already do

Let us find out what we have in common

Let us just talk,

Forever.

- CS

Please.

Please tell me what this is.

Please let me know what you are feeling.

Please tell me if I am stuck in your head.

Cause you are stuck in mine.

Please help me figure this out.

Show me the truth.

Please tell me you like me,

But tell me in what way.

How fast can you fall in love?

Do you know that?

Were you in love before?

Or after? Are you in love now?

Please give me love.

I cannot play hide and seek with love anymore.

Please tell me to leave you the f alone,

Or tell me to stay.

Please tell me what I need.

Cause I do not know.

Please show me.

Please give it to me.

- CS

Kiss.

Kiss me like you wanna be loved.

Cause I do.

Do you?

I want you.

I kissed you.

You kissed me.

And I have never felt something better

Than the feeling of kissing you.

I want to feel your soft plump lips again.

I cannot get them out of my mind.

I do not know if it is crazy,

But I think the kiss made me fall in love with you.

I asked you if you regret it,

You said there was no reason to.

Did you mean that?

Did you mean it when you said I was really sweet?

The kiss is all I think about.

And you.

How about you?

What do you think about?

- CS

Confused.

It is like he is stuck in my head.

Like he cannot get out.

He has blown away everything else in there,

And now there is only him back.

His beautiful brown eyes keeps staring at me,

Even though he is not around.

I can still feel his body against mine.

But he is not here.

I just want him to text me.

Or to call me.

Or like a picture of me on Facebook.

I just want to know if this is real!

I have not thought about anything else than him,

Ever since we shared that one single kiss.

But it was a good kiss.

My first, actually. The best.

But what if it had not happened?

If they had not told us to kiss.

Would I be writing this now?

Would I be in love? Confused.

- CS

Uno

No, I'm not Spanish. I am a dane (from Denmark) but I am an exchange student in America (Link). Basically this blog will be all my toughts and feeling put down to words. I have a thing with writing down what I feel.. So I figured, why not share it.

I am a dreamer, I follow my dreams and one of the most important things to me, other than the people i care for, is to be true to myself. 

"Be a true heart not a follower." - Ed Sheeran.

 I haven't been through the worst thing, I've had my heart broken and I have broken another heart, but my brain is a place filled with thoughts and feels and it has helped me to put it down and read other peoples words. So here you go, follow my life in the form of poems and whatever I might end up posting here.

Enjoy.

- CS